It’s been a while.
The reason: Utter Exhaustion!!!
I am mentally and physically exhausted…all the time.
When Ep got the job in Philly, I thought, “No problem. I’m a tough cookie. I can handle being a ’single mom’ for a while.”
Well…I’m beat. And I’m not embarrassed to admit it. We all have “our moments” and these past few weeks have been just that. It’s at the point where if you were to genuinely ask how I was doing, I’d probably burst out in tears. (But no one really actually asks that question sincerely, so I don’t have to worry).
BUT….there is hope! The dance show will be over next weekend so that means I get my husband back on the weekends! Horray!!! AND…Ep is allowed to work at home once or twice a week now (until we sell our house…which I took off the market today. I’m in no mood to keep a house tidy right now).
Don’t get me wrong. My life isn’t that bad. In fact, it’s great. But every mom knows that if you don’t get a break once in a while, you literally start going crazy. Very, very normal. (At least that’s what everyone tells me. I hope it’s normal.)
But it’s never a good thing when you get out of bed in morning and already feel like you’re going crazy! Nope, not normal at all. And that’s where I’m at right now.
Today in particular was a tough one.
But you know what? I’m in good spirits now:
Elizabeth went to bed without a fight…and didn’t even attempt to climb out of her crib. Victory!!!
David Cook just won American Idol and I couldn’t be happier.
I watched AI while eating my new favorite snack ever…Cracked Pepper and Olive Oil Triscuits with sharp chedder cheese spread. Divine!
My husband called me three times in the middle of the show to make fun of Jordin Spark’s golden mu mu and the horrendous song George Micheal sang…and I just thought to myself, “I’m so lucky to have a guy who, although I never see him much anymore, thinks to call me everytime he wants to put someone down.” Ah, true love.
Yup, I’m happy. Still exhausted. But very happy.
We’ll see what tomorrow morning brings.